FEEL FORGOTTEN?

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“I am not forgotten…He knows my name” I think we all get to the point where we feel like we’re forgotten. I know I do. Those times where I promote my stuff whether it’s my blogs, my videos, my podcasts, or whatever and get nothing? Yeah, I feel forgotten. When I think about all the good friends I had back in middle and high school and now I barely have any communication with them whatsoever, yeah I feel forgotten. Little things like that get to me. But God…

Just earlier today I was talking to my sister about when you grow in God or just naturally, you tend to lose the friends you thought you have. Then I said half serious half jokingly, “Well I lost my friends a long time ago.” Sometime it feels like that. I will be straight up honest. It wasn’t always like that though. Times in my life I had friends, actual friends that were not on the internet, that cared about my well being. Not that I’m disowning the friends I’ve met on the net, but I’m just saying. Times when I had no money for lunch, I never went hungry. Friends. Times when I wanted to tell a girl I liked her, friends would tell me to just do it. They wanted to see me succeed. Friendship. At one time I actually had a book going around school with a manager and everything. People liked and gave feedback on the stuff I wrote. Interesting concept.

Now that that season of my life is over, I miss it. I’m going to be honest. I miss conversations. I miss laughing at conversations. I miss that face to face contact with folks that actually were interested in what I had to talk about and vice versa. Plus with me being the clown that I am, it’s much easier to feed off someone in person rather than through webcam or computer mics. Getting my license I figured that getting around to meet up with folks would be easier. Yet things are basically the same when I comes to that stuff. Who’s at fault? I am. I admit it. My mindset is not at the place of confidence to think that people would actually want to meet me for lunch or meet up with me and hang out.

It’s really all about mindset. When we feel forgotten we need to realize that God is omnipresent, meaning God is everywhere. Therefore we’re never alone. God doesn’t forget about us. It feels that way though because we’ve forgotten about him. Maybe, it’s just God showing tough love so you can get yourself right. Just like any parent would do for their child. I know when my mom showed tough love on me, it killed me. Yet now, I got a job and my license. Still got a long way to go, but I’m heading in the right direction. Mom didn’t forget about me, she just loved me enough to listen to God and let me go through what I went through because it would make me better, and it did.

Sometimes though people are thinking about you, they just don’t say anything to you. I know I think about folks all the time, I just don’t say anything to them. Most of the time I pray for them. Just keeping it real. Should I try to connect with all the folks I think about? I say if the timing is right, go for it. So when you start to feel lonely, when you start to feel forgotten, remember that the one true and living God has not forgotten you. Remember that there is somebody out there thinking about you and possibly praying for you as well. I pray for all the folks I’m connected with whether in person or online.

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Daniel Richerson aka Big Dusty

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So this morning my mom left for her field assignment. She's on a two day drive on her way to Illinois. She's going to be gone for a year or more coming home once a month. It's really going to suck more than a hooker on a Friday night. Mom left me with a man that makes Oscar the Grouch the nicest man on Earth. I'm sorry to all family members and church members that are reading this in advance, but my dad is a pain. And it's going to be pure hell for the next year. I wouldn't blame my sister for not coming home at all, even if it's to do laundry. Now I'm not going to spend more time bashing the man that is my dad, but I am going to say that if anything's a wake up call for me to get myself together, this is it. If I don't get myself together as in get a job, get my license, etc. and just spend time by myself getting more depressed and more angry...it's nobody's fault but mine.

Now, changing the subject all together. Jack Black. I think he's a great performer. He's a great entertainer. With that said, I've lost a lot respect for him. There's a video circulating around, if you haven't seen it, with celebrities protesting the decision made in California on Prop 8. On one side they had celebrities impersonating priests and church members, and on the other side they had celebrities impersonating homosexuals. Then later in the video, Jack Black came out dressed out as Jesus. I guess that was supposed to be funny. If it was, you have to forgive me if I don't laugh. I don't find it funny playing with the Bible. I don't find it funny, or ok, making a joke of the Bible. In the video, or should I say, what I saw of it, the people mentioned the fact that in Leviticus it says that homosexuality is a detestable sin. Jack Black came out dressed as Jesus, as I said, with some shrimp saying that Bible said that shrimp was wrong. Now if you read around Leviticus 11:10 on, it does talk about not eating certain animals and other things. It does say that. But, if you go to Acts the 10th chapter, Peter was on a roof top hungry. And a blanket came from heaven with all kinds things that were considered an abomination in Leviticus. God told Peter to rise, kill and eat. Peter said in so many words, "How can I, when it's unclean." Then God said, "What I call clean, don't you call unclean." All this reminds me of when Satan tried to tempt Jesus by using the Word. Satan got schooled then, so why would he try to use celebrities to do the same thing. Another thing. I don't know about y'all, but God's wrath is something I don't want to play with. You can play with God's wrath, but not me sir. Not me.

I was thinking the other day. I have online friends, and I'm thankful for y'all. PraiZe, Yungtown, and others. Y'all my people. But there was a time when we as a family was living in a 2 story apartment. In the aparment complex, I used to have friends that I was actually in contact with. Two dudes Gregory and Dustin I met at random. I met Gregory while he was fishing with his Dad, and I forgot how I met Dustin, but that's beside the point. We were, in so many words, a clique. My sister was with us too. What I'm basically saying is that I had friends. We'd play outside. We'd go to each other's apartments and just chill. What happened to me that I've lost the ability to attract friends. It seems like after high school, I've become this loner that has gained a "nobody likes me, everybody hates me" type of thing. I've gained a lot of associates at church and where ever, but other than that...just mainly my online people I hit up. Sometimes I barely talk to them. Not on purpose by any means. So what's wrong with me? The Bible says if you want friends you have to show yourself friendly. I must not be doing a good job.

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~Daniel

P.S. If you must know I'm currently listening to "Jesus Be A Fence" by Fred Hammond. Noisy...:D