Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Reality Chapter 11

For weeks Daniel has been complaining that he hadn’t been getting enough playing time on the drums at his church. He felt that his skills were becoming limited. He even went as far as to say that he would go to back to his old church just to play drums, which is an hour drive from his house. So one Sunday night, Daniel came in the church for the Sunday night service, and the pastor asked him to play since his son, the regular drummer, had to work.

Daniel was excited and nervous at the same time. The verse in the Bible that says “For every one that asketh receiveth…” kept running through his head. So Daniel walked up, and got on the drum set, while his stomach was in knots. The young organist of the church walked in and got on the organ. Daniel was trying to adjust the snare drum and the hi hat to his liking but couldn’t get it to work right. So Daniel started rocking back in forth quoting the scripture “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me (Philippians 4:13),” over and over hoping that would help him.

Praise and worship started and Daniel choked. He played like a rookie. He got off-beat a lot, also kept getting unpleasant looks from one of the members of the Praise team of disapproval. Being the soft hearted person that he is, Daniel kept mouthing that he was sorry. It wasn’t until after praise and worship ended that Daniel figured that he could lower the seat to feel more comfortable. Of course Jeanette kept telling him that he didn’t choke after the service, but Daniel knew the truth.

At his old church, Daniel would just play, no holding back. He would hop in the drums and wouldn’t think about messing up. For some reason however when he got the opportunity to play at his new church, he couldn’t get himself to play to his full potential. So from that moment, Daniel proclaimed to himself that when or if he gets another chance to play the drums during the service, he won’t think so much.

Daniel has been chatting on one of his messengers more. For one he met a dude on a message board that was born and raised in the city Daniel spent the first 5 years of his life. They chatted one time, and had a good conversation. Also Daniel found himself chatting with an old female friend of his that shares the same passion for writing. She was going through relationship issues, and Daniel was there to provide some humor and smiles. One thing Daniel loves is bringing happiness in depressing situations.

Another person Daniel chats with from time to time is this up and coming singer that lives in West Virginia. One thing Daniel does is that when some one sends him a song he/she wrote and recorded, Daniel will be honest on how good the song is. On that note, Daniel feels that this particular singer’s songs leaves a lot to be desired, but Daniel loves to chat with her. Something about her is attractive to Daniel, but he knows better than to go deep in it. She often calls Daniel the “Random King” and she’s the “Random Queen.”

Daniel also found time to create a message board of his own, with low expectations of getting members. Reason being is because Daniel has created a few message boards in the past with high expectations and both died miserable deaths. Neither had much grown and/or activity. So with this new message board, he figured that he would advertise it much at all, and when he would advertise it, he wouldn’t pay much attention to the response. To his shock, his board got some members and some activity. One thing Daniel is doing though is that everyday, he’s posting on his board with the thought that his board is the best on the internet. In his eyes, that’s the only way his board will grow.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Reality Chapter 10

Through the weeks, Daniel began to grow spiritually. Physically he’s still at home with no job. He’s lost a lot of friends through the weeks, while he’s growing, and to say that didn’t hurt Daniel would be a negative. Nobody seems to want to chat with him. His blog entries have been getting fewer comments by each entry. The feeling of being avoided has been the real mood. Seemed like the more Daniel grew spiritually, the more his so-called friends left physically.

Through his growing, Daniel turned away from secular music. He felt like he was being two-faced to God by listening to both secular and Christian music. He explained it all through this blog entry. Here’s the 2nd paragraph:

“So here we go. In Revelation 3:15-16 (NLT) it says “I know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. I wish that you were one or the other! But since you are like lukewarm water, neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth!” What I get out of these two verses is that God telling us to be hot or cold. In other words, live for God or don’t. Don’t try to do both. Stop listening to Jay Z and J. Moss. Stop listening to Mary Mary and Rhianna. Stop listening to Da Truth and T.I. Why am I mentioning that? Well let’s go this way. The Bible says in Proverbs 18:21 (NLT) that “the tongue can bring death or life…” Think about it. What kind of life is being brought out by T.I.? 50 Cent? Lil Wayne? When’s the last time you felt God’s glory listening to Umbrella? When’s the last time you felt the need to lay hands on some one after listening to Amusement Park? When’s the last time you got into the presence of the Lord listening to Same Girl? Huh? “Daniel, why you hatin man?” Because it’s time for some of you guys to get the truth. I know you think it’s a fat beat but there’s a spirit behind it. Got me? Look guys, God is sick of us being lukewarm. Worshipping God on Sunday and fornicating to Snoop Dog on Tuesday. Praising God on Sunday and buying the T.I. album on Thursday. God is saying make up your mind!! Who are you serving?”

Daniel was really motivated at a Christian concert he went to, that really taught him a lot...

Daniel found out just now that his stand against being a cussing worshipper, a booty-licious praiser offended some people. He’s not surprised by this. One of the main people it offended was his good friend. They chatted earlier, and Daniel asked him:

“Daniel: I haven't been offending you in know with me avoiding secular music and all have I?”

“[Friend]: Yeah”

It seemed like Daniel was losing friends right from left. He leaves the computer on basically all day, and not one IM from his friends. He understands school is back on, but what about after school? No im.

Daniel has also been having a hard time sleeping lately. He’s getting over a habit, and fantasies keep trying to pop in his mind. So Daniel finds himself leaving the TV on, or the CD player on to get his mind on something else.

With all this stuff going on, Daniel figured that there’s no where else to go but up.