Thursday, March 15, 2012

CONNECTED BUT NOT CONNECTED

5:10 in the morning. I couldn’t sleep. All I could think of is when. When is that first girlfriend gonna happen? When is that first kiss gonna happen? There’s a song out that says, “I don’t mind waiting.” I don’t sing that song because I’d be lying if I said that. When am I gonna get that phone call, text, tweet, email, or what ever saying that, “Hey, I was thinking about you, just wanted to say hey.” It may seem selfish, but I’m tired of feeling lonely and saying I got Jesus at the same time. I’m tired of hearing that we’re here for each other, I need you to survive, and yet we’re never there for anybody. Not even for ourselves. When people cross our minds, do we pray for that person or do we just say, “Hmm, why am I thinking about him/her?” Somebody comes to my mind, I often try to at least write on their wall on Facebook. Now I’m not stubborn like some people, if you don’t respond, I don’t keep trying to beg for your attention. I don’t beg to get a response from you. When I try to connect, I feel I done my part. Is that wrong?

There’s a song that says, “Somebody prayed for me, had me on their mind, took some time, and prayed for me.” I found myself wondering, who’s mind have I been on. Too much? Maybe, but this is the kind of stuff I think about when I can’t sleep. This is the kind of stuff I think about when I have 274 followers on Twitter and get nothing from nobody most days as far as a mention or reply. This is the kind of stuff I think about when I have 111 subscribers on YouTube, and I can’t even break 20 viewers on my videos. I’m connected to all these people but yet I really have no connection with them. Having 340 “friends” on FaceBook and can barely get a like on a post. That kind of stuff right there…

Connection, but no connection. That’s kind of scary to think about, really. We may be connected to the answer we’re seeking, but since we really have no connection, they’re just there for a count. What if God did us the same way? Ted Winn has a song that says, “I am connected to the kingdom of God.” What if we’re only connected to the kingdom so God could get his count up? Song says, “What if God was one of us?” Well? That would mean only a select few of us would get helped. That would mean only a select few of us would get answers to prayer. The rest of us would get that one answer when our birthday comes.

Again, connected but not connected. You got some celebrities that got a twitter only to say they got one, but we all know that some celebrities use someone else to send out tweets. There’s no real connection with fans. There’s a connection, but no connection. On the other hand, you got some celebrities, that actually tweet they’re on tweets and have a connection with the fans. They respond to all they can. They can’t respond to everybody because let’s face it, that would be impossible. When I get a response or retweet from the athletes and entertainers I follow on Twitter, it lets me know that they really care about connection. I believe God really cares about connection. Matthew 6:25-33 proves that to me, especially the 33rd verse that says, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness…” In other words, get connected. When there’s connection, then there’s the rest of the verse that says, “…and all these things shall be added unto you.” What are these things? That’s where 25 through 32 comes in.

I hate being around people but there’s no connection. I especially hate that feeling in church. Oops. Yes, in church. That’s sad really. To be around people everyday, but have no connection with any one? Not one person? I’ll keep it real with ya, I understand that you can’t hang out with everybody, even at church, but if you can’t find at least 3 or 4 people to connect with, maybe you’re the problem. That’s an ouch and amen moment for me at least.

I don’t know maybe I should be stubborn and try to connect more with people even when they don’t connect with me. Maybe I’m wrong, and I’m the problem. Maybe I’m the reason I get no replies, mentions, or anything like that. I’m just tired of being connected but not connected.

Stay Saved,

Daniel Richerson aka Big Dusty

Monday, March 05, 2012

INTERESTING...

So this past Sunday was my first Sunday as the sound man at church. It went well because I really didn’t have to do anything. I’m not going to say I’m the best soundman ever because I’m not. I’m not going to say that I know what I’m doing because I don’t. I feel though the more the weeks go by, the more time I do it, the more I will get better at it. Now, this guy at my job said that exact same thing to me about the job. Here’s the difference. I like being a sound man. I’m interested in being a sound man. I want to learn more about being a sound man. As far as the job goes, as those that know me already know, I don’t like my job. I’m not interested in my line of work. I don’t want to learn more about my job. My job provides check for my bank account. That’s the only reason I go to work Tuesday through Saturday of each week. A check. Sound man? I’m interested. Why? I’m interested in music. Some of y’all know. I like to sing. I like to play the drums. I have dreams. I have goals. Why not learn how to make the music and the psalmist sound good on the speakers? I’m interested in the music in front of the curtain, why not learn how it sounds good behind the curtain, know what I mean?

That’s how I am about things I’m interested in. Like pro wrestling. I’ve been a fan of wrestling most of my life. As a fan of wrestling, I wanted to learn everything I could about the product that I’m a fan of. That’s why I like watching documentaries on wrestlers and wrestling companies. I like watching shows like Tough Enough because that show focusing on training people to become successful in the business that I’m a fan of. I want to know how the performers do what they do. Because I’m interested in it.

I’m interested in entertainment. When DVD’s have behind the scenes footage on the movie, I watch it. Why? Because I’m interested in seeing how the movie was made and how the movie got to where it got to when it got released to what we saw on the DVD. Also if I like an actor or actress I watch documentaries and interviews on them to see how they got to where they are. What’s the story on them? How did they learn their craft? Inside The Actor’s Studio on Bravo is one of my favorite shows because it gets me closer to the person that gets paid to entertain.

Bottom line, when you’re interested in something, you learn more about it. You study it. Especially if you’re interested in getting into a business or craft, you learn all you can about it without going to college. Like movies and stuff. Not only do I watch movies and comedy stand up, but I find myself studying it as I’m watching to see why do they do this or why do they do that. I’ve always been one to learn by watching. I learn by doing. Sitting in class with a pencil and paper, I’m sleep. That’s boring. Put me on the spot, make me do it, let me make mistakes, tell me what I did wrong, and then next time, I get better.

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Big Dusty aka Daniel Richerson